Muddled...and pissed.

I got an SMS from my "ex" colleague. She's from the Accounting & Administrative side. The sms came as a shock to me but apparently everyone else has been expecting it. Funny thing is that I'm receiving the sms unprepared and everyone else around me were expecting it. I've been told that my pay from the old company will not be released to me due to certain "outstanding issues" which I have failed to settle for them. The ONE who informed me, herself was shocked that I wasn't aware what is being done to me until she informed me because the decision to hold my pay was apparently decided the minute I tendered in my resignation. All other colleagues were expecting it except me due to the fact that by far, no staff has been allowed a graceful and peaceful exit from the Company. And apparently, I was the only one who foolishly believed in the best of my bosses. Especially the one boss whom I have always held in respect and been loyal too.

This came as a big blow to me. They apparently have been planning and plotting against me yet I was oblivous to it all. Till the very last day before I left for KL, I was still foolishly helping out. What an idiot! This the 2nd time I feel that the bosses have broken my heart especially the boss whom I have given my loyalty to for the full 6 years of my service to the company. Whatever was told to me and instructed to me, I have always listened and obeyed without question. I thought this person would be trustworthy. When tendering in my resignation, I was so torn. Apparently, I shouldn't have agonized myself so much about it because they have NEVER appreciated what I have done.

The issues that they are picking out with me now are issues that are not within my job scope. Things that are not under me AND should have been handled by their ownself for the very beginning. The procedures within the Company itself is so messy and yet @ the end, they are blaming on staff whom are in no condition responsible for the messiness within the Company itself. Apparently EVERYONE else was expecting THEM to make life difficult for me. All except ME.

How could I have been such a fool????

I feel hurt and betrayed beyound what I can describe. Through my 6 years with this Company, I have shed more tears that I deem worthy of them. Through turmoils within the Company, I have stood resolutely behind them and for them. This is what I get in return. Betrayal in ways that I never thought they were capable of.

How can ANYONE @ all have a clear conscience of what they're doing and play act like a drama knowing full well how they are actually stabbing and twisting the knife in a person's back??? It is just beyond me. Is the world really that corrupt??? I have so many questions sitting now in me. Hurt that spills out. Anger @ the injustice of it all. Anger @ my own naiveness. Anger @ my foolishness and my beliefs.

I want so much right now to just lash out and cause the same hurt that they have caused me...

Other ex-colleagues now tell that I should just leave things be... But where is the fairness in that??? I'm entitled to my pay am I not??? It is MY RIGHT and what I DESERVE and WORKED for. How can I just sit back and let it be....???

A New Beginning....

A lot has been going on since before the 16th August 2007. I have been in a frenzy trying to tidy up of what is the ending of my time with Somnotec, my old company now. Though technically, I'm on leave. I have moved on to a new company where new things await me. New colleagues. New adjustments and all that. Hence the lack of time to blog and all that crap. Also the fact that I have moved back home and trying to adjust to it still. This means that I no longer hog a pc/laptop all to myself and can access into the Net @ anytime I want. The job change also warrants that for now, I need to re-build everything from scratch. (sighs)

I have sort of settled into the new routine somewhat. Though there's still much I need to learn and pick up from my colleagues. But so far, everyone has been really nice and warm, to which I'm really grateful. I've always had (this is what I think anyway!!) great colleagues while serving with Somnotec.


Right before my move, our dear "datin" returned from S'pore for a week's worth of stay. And us being us, found the time to catch up together and as usual, much fun and laughter emitted from it. Unfortunately, I have only photos of the first night we were together but not of the 2nd which anyway didnt matter much because most of us couldn't make it for the 2nd gathering right before "datin" left.


Things hasn't changed much @ all. To our delight, we found another long lost comrade from high school days whom to our ever growing group of friends we'd be expecting to hear wedding bells soon enough!! Her better half proved to be a great guy who got along well with everyone and has a great sense of humour who joined in the fun with much gutso after I think the initial shock of seeing the craziness of his fiancée's high school friends. :P Alina & Tan, hope we didnt scare you both too much, though Alina by now, I expect that you're very much used to it except that you've not been seeing it for awhile now!!


In light with the concoction that "datin" thought of for Keagan to drink during his wedding with Felicia, he kindly returned the "favour" which I'm grateful to have been spared!!! I have never been a great fan of "oh kau" and I dont think I ever will. Adding the raw egg in definitely didn't make me feel like savouring it any bit @ all!!! However, after much cajoling, persuasion, whinnying and @ the end, we bullied "datin" into finishing half the bottle with the raw egg. Since its done and over with, I'd have to say this now... "Datin, if I were you the other night, I'd have preferred to have the whole bottle of "oh kau" added in with the raw egg!! I can't imagine the smell of it with only half a small bottle of "oh kau" to dilute the smell!! I think you made the wrong choice!!!!!" Ekekekekeke!!!




Other than that, earlier on in the month, my better half and I celebrated our 3rd year anniversary being together. Wheeeee!! Getting old liao :( Its been 3 years that has been filled with plenty of ups and downs. Tears and laughter. Another 3 more years perhaps??? :o)

Its done

Well .. its official now. I have tendered in my resignation. I will be leaving a work that I have already been comfortable and made familarise for 6 years now. By next Thursday, I will officially be reporting in for duty with a new company where I will be meeting new bosses, colleagues and people. The only ones whom (some only) will stay the same will be doctors and such.

I leave behind memories mostly that are great and some that have hurt...

I leave behind a boss who has taught me a lot and given me the chance when I first started out in this industry. I leave behind warm and great colleagues who have been sources of help and encouragement to me.

I look forward to working with another great boss. I certainly do hope so. I look forward to having a good relationship with colleagues. I really hope so.