The days feel like its never ending these days and superbly long. I wanna go home.....

Being sick while in KL was definitely no fun as well. Gawd. To add to the fact that I was in training and having exams most of the time definitely didnt add well. Lets not even go into the fact that I'm still pissed @ my ex-company and probably will be for the rest of all life. The main person being the she-wolf that I've just gotten to realise about. Oh well....

Adding to the fact that unlike Tune Hotel, Internet access over @ Eastin's is NOT only chargable but superbly expensive as well. Hence the reason why I need to fully utlise my 1 hour usage charge @ the amazing rate of RM25!!!

There's so much bottled inside right now but how do I exactly spill it out, I don't know. *sighs*

Scawred....

I'm nervous .. so nervous... Ugh. The day hasn't even dawned on me yet, and I'm so nervous till I'm ready to throw up. This can't be good ................

Thursday looms ahead ... Everytime when you know you've got something important and you know that your time and dates are really tight and non-changeable, they clash. That is what has happened....

*fingers tightly crossed*

To the "Old Friend"....

Friendship is a funny thing. Just like any other relationships it needs to be nurtured. To me, I liken friendship to that of the man/woman relationship. Its just as complicated, if not more. It needs to be built and nurtured. And then there's are those friends whom you know are the "right" ones for you. The soul mates. I have had my fair share of crashes and burns from the different friendships that I have built up over the years. From school days to college days to now ... my working days. There were those true friends who has stuck by me through thick and thin. Watched me laughed and watched me cry, they did it with me. There were those who watched me laughed and watched me cry just from a distance. Then there those who first made me laugh, then the very ones who made me cry. Each has left a significant mark in my life.

There are friends who walked in and stayed put through all the years. Then there are those that walked in and walked out and yet inexplicably who came back, and things just fell back to the way they were, just like they never left. Then ... there's those who walked in, stamped around, tore what I thought were beatiful tapestries of a friendship formed into shreds and left the little pieces lying around...

To you the friend(s) that has always stayed with me through thick and thin ... my deepest and most heartfelt thanks. I hope that I'm the same friend to you as you are to me. This is for you ...

You Were There For Me

Words escape me

at this moment

that seems like the end

yet it is only the beginning

when friendships are close

and dreams are far

you were there for me

Tears fill me with memories

of both good and bad

some nearly forgetton

yet all dear to the heart

you were there for me

In times of trouble

and in times of thanks

you stood by my side

and held me up

Through your ever-patient ears

to your comforting hugs

you were there for me

From that first day

when I saw you

and knew that

you would love me

for who I was

you were there for me

And until the day

when we are old and gray

I will always know that

you are there for me

For the friend(s) who walked out and walked back in again just as though you never left. And especially to the one who has just walked back in recently and opened up to me as I have to you, this is for you...

A Friend Like You

Everyone should havea friend like you

You are so much fun to be withAnd you are such a good person

You crack me up with laughter

And touch my heart with your kindness

You have a wonderful abilityT

o know when to offer advice

And when to sit in quiet support

Time after time

You've come to my rescue

And brightend so many

Of my routine days

And time after time

I've realized how fortunate

I am that my life includes you

I really do believe that

Everybody should have a friend like you

But so far it looks like

You are one of a kind!!

To the friend(s) that walked out, shredded what I believed in and left the pieces behind...

Friends No Longer

Sorry I forgot to tell you

That as my friend you must be true.

As that I went to say,

No more were we at play.

I meant to tell you the future looked bright,

But all of a sudden we got in a fight.

I went to tell you we should be friends,

That I will be here untill the end.

But you would not listen to me,

So friends no longer shall we be.

Hmmm .. sitting here with nothing to do and reflecting on the past is making me a little pyschotic! But seriously, thank YOU for being there for me all these while and also to YOU who came back! (Y'all know who you are!!!)

XOXOXO

More Personality Test(s)!!

Due to my inability to fall asleep .. I shall entertain myself with more personality test(s). Be it crappy ones or whatever. Maybe those crappy ones will be crappy enough to put me to sleep!!!

WHAT KINDA SEXY ARE YOU? To do your own test, click HERE

You're Hot 'n' Sexy

When you enter a room, all eyes gravitate toward you. Like a moth to a flame, people can't help but notice you. Maybe it's how you casually move through a crowd or that glow you give off when you flash that smile. You're hot and it shows. Could it be the haircut that says it all about you, the jeans that fit just right, or the casual way you saunter across a room looking confident from all angles?You have an air about you that commands respect from men and women alike. You possess such outward strength that these people ache to be around you. When you speak, people hang on your every word. You are so full of charisma and cachet that, whether in a business or social setting, you can gauge the mood in the room and offer the right compliment or provocative statement for any scene. Do you have a secret intuition about how people work? Just maybe. And that's one of the sexiest things about you

ARE YOU EVIL??? (I really do wonder if I am...) To try it out, click HERE

Sprouting Horns

Well, you're kinda evil. They haven't reserved a place for you in Hell yet, but the leasing agents are starting their calls. (Sorry, no air conditioning.) We're guessing you find others' pain funny, your backstabbing knife is probably pretty sharp, and your sexual wiles have likely brought you enjoyment at the expense of your bunkmates a time or two. If more than one of those three things rings true, consider yourself a card-carrying evil person. If you're interested in recanting the evil thing, sensitivity counseling isn't a bad idea. Or else at least consider finding a more sadistic career, like being a bouncer or a meter maid. But hey, to each his own, and if your evilness fits, wear it.

So, you have a healthy sex drive — good for you! No one likes a prude. In general, you give as well as you get, though everyone can get a little selfish under the covers, so don't beat yourself up about going for the big one on your birthday. And while you're at it, go ahead and admit it — you've probably flashed a big smile to get your way in the bedroom (or to the bedroom!) before. But for the most part, you strike us as a generous lover who's doing pretty good at keeping your raw, sexual power in check. Yeah, baby!

Sure, you may be always smiling, but you hold grudges for years, repress your anger, and then blow up in conniving ways — you've got "postal worker" written all over you. If you want to stop the migraines, please look into anger-management classes at the local Y. Passive-aggressive people are often very sympathetic, which is why they hide their anger. So take solace in knowing you're still coming off as kind-hearted, you sneaky, two-faced back-stabber.

We're not going to say you're a bad person, but you're toeing the line. A little advice: Try to think about how your victim will feel before you pull your next dirty prank (we don't care how funny you think it is when you take out a classified ad to sell someone's car for them without their knowledge). You may be under the impression that cruelty is funny, but your friends don't — especially the ones who've been burned by your verging-on-evil ways. Listen to your conscience from time to time, okay?

ARE YOU HIGH MAINTANENCE? (Even before taking this test, I suppose to result will be more to yes...) Do the test yourself HERE

Keeping up with the Joneses

Although you definitely appreciate a first-class lifestyle, you don't feel a constant need to indulge yourself. Sure, it's fun to spoil yourself with fancy dinners or designer clothes every once in a while, but you probably don't need everything in your life to be top of the line all the time. Congratulations! You know how to indulge yourself the right way — in moderation.

A Bit Dramatic

You like being a top priority in your partner's life, but you also respect their independence — and good for you! Sure, it's important for you to feel valued and appreciated in your relationship, but your expectations for your significant other tend to be realistic and attainable. You definitely know how you want to be treated, but you don't think the only fulfilling relationship is one filled with constant doting. Sensible and sweet!

Laid-Back

You definitely care about how you present yourself, but probably not enough to let your appearance dictate what you do, where you go, and who you spend time with. Sure, you take pride in your appearance, but you know that some things are more important than looks. That's a great attitude — it looks like you've achieved a very healthy balance between narcissism and neglect.

I am an ENFP!!!!!!!!!!

Life as an ENFP

(Extravert, Intuitive, Feeler, Perceiver)

People of this type tend to be: enthusiastic, talkative, and outgoing; clever, curious, and playful; deeply caring, sensitive, and gentle; highly innovative, creative, optimistic, and unique; adaptable and resourceful but sometimes disorganized.

The most important thing to ENFPs is freedom to see possibilities, make connections, and be with a variety of people.

Then they give you the most helpful tip of all ... How to Love an ENFP

• Appreciate my creativity, curiosity, and uniqueness.
  
• Tell me how much I mean to you and be patient with my need to process how I feel privately before sharing it with you.
  
• Re-establish harmony quickly.
  
• Support my need to try new experiences and maintain my many friendships.
  
• Try not force decisions too quickly, or bug me about being messy.
  
• Above all - encourage me to keep growing, changing, and experimenting with life.

Hmmmm...darling, if you happen to read this, please take note of ALL the points above there!!! Kinda explains a lot of stuff about me huh??? And now you know why .... :o)

How to Spot ENFPs:

• high energy, friendly, and good natured
  
• imaginative, fun loving, and off beat
  
• curious; discussions shift quickly from one topic to another
  
• warm, concerned, and eager to help solve problems
  

Tips for Communicating with ENFPs:

• Focus on interesting and innovative possibilities and new ways of solving problems
  
• Don't overwhelm them with facts and details
  
• Keep things relaxed, warm and flexible

There ... I've given it all up there for you peeps.

If you so happen to be interested to find out what you are just click on THIS!!!!

Definition of friendship : Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more humans. This article focuses on the notion specific to interpersonal relationships. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, and affection. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them. Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating on a consistent basis:

(extracted from Wikipedia)

the tendency to desire what is best for the other, sympathy and empathy, honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth, especially in terms of pointing out the perceived faults of one's counterpart mutual understanding.
In a comparison of personal relationships, friendship is considered to be closer than association, although there is a range of degrees of intimacy in both friendships and associations. (extracted from Wikipedia)

Friendship and association can be thought of as spanning across the same continuum. (extracted from Wikipedia)

Reading that, I wonder if you'e that true a friend afterall???? You certainly dont seem to show much regards or support to what you know would mean a lot to me. What you know I hope so hard and trying to hard to achieve. And because of that, right now, I dont know where you stand as a friend to me ... I think you need to re-evaluate the friendship that we have and whether or not you really treat what we have as a friendship. Because right now, to me, you've already failed the very first criteria above!

I spent the whole of last night awake and didn't manage to fall asleep till 8am this morning. So baically for the rest of today I will be functioning on caffeine. I'm not sure what type of day today has turned out to be. So far, I can't really say that I'm in a super good mood or even really in a good @ all. Maybe it's just the lack of sleep. However, I can safely say, so far today there hasn't been any pleasing news @ all for me.

My assignments are like way overdue. (sighs) They're deducting off 5marks p/day. So if my calculations are correct, I'm running on negative I guess. This is definitely not good. I wanna finish my studies. The heart is willing, but the body is weak! Hahaha.... However, I'll just submit it in and make the best of it I guess.

Right now I'm wreck. I'm nervous. I so want to have what I yearn for ... its so near yet so far. Still more hurdles to get through.

*fingers tightly crossed*

I know I'm going into bloggin overkill. But heck ... since I've not blogged for so long. Its like a pent up issue that's erupting out... Heh! Blog "poh siew"!!

Insomnia

Insomnia is characterized by an inability to sleep and/or to be incapable of remaining asleep for a reasonable period. Insomniacs typically complain of being unable to close their eyes or "rest their mind" for more than a few minutes at a time. Both organic and nonorganic insomnia constitute a sleep disorder[1][2]. It is often caused by fear, stress, anxiety, medications, herbs or caffeine. An overactive mind or physical pain may also be causes. Finding the underlying cause of insomnia is usually necessary to cure it.

Hence the reason why I'm still up at this ungodly hour (to me it is!!) on a weekday. This however isn't something that doesn't occur often for me.

I. Want. My. Sleep. *sighs*

Sometimes while driving, I just snap pictures @ random which catches my fancy. Or when I'm just browsing around stores or walking around. Especially if they are cute (cute to me that is) potential photos of animals. So here there are :

This hamster somehow reminds me of a guinea pic. The size of it and its marking. It soo loveable though!

Awwww ... isn't that a sweet sight!

Was playing peek-a-boo with this dog until I realised that his owners (driver and passanger in the truck, presuming that they are the owners of the dog) were staring @ me from the rearview mirror. A rather malufying moment for me.

"If I stand here long enough and look pitiful ... maybe the lady will gimme a whole roast duck!!"