I miss this little bugger!! Apparently since I've last left home, he has apparently gone psychotic and started biting @ people's fingers especially my brother's. And because my brother's semi-psychotic @ times too, he allows him to bit onto his finger and daggle there!! Ouchies~

It's not easy being an elder sister or a child to parents @ times. Sometimes, I'm @ a loss to what to do or say. It's not easy being a wife. Sometimes I'm @ loss as to how to deal with the husband.

Sometimes, I'd just so much rather stay @ work....

My very FIRST fish!!

I am so proud!! I've officially caught my FIRST fish!! My very first fish!! How sakai does that sound?!!? Anyway, my first fish!! *hop* *hop* Wheee!!!

Isn't it a beauty?!?! I think so!! My first fish!!

All other relevant issues pertaining ot fishing will only be related in following entry...

My baby's all grown up!

The title says it all. *sniff* All grown up and NAUGHTY!!! I'm running out of shoes thanks to him.

Its almost been half a year since any entry has been posted. I'm @ a loss. Plus typing on this super small laptop isnt a bundle of fun. You need really super tiny fingers to type fast and ACCURATELY. Most importantly, long finger nails are a a big no no apparently.

I'm bored. I'm sleepy but unable to sleep. Im getting tired of jetting around every month. I want to be abe to just sit and relax. Take a deep breath and laze around. i never wanted to be so caught up in this rat's race lifestyle but somehow, i've been sucked into it without realising it till its too late.

Time has flown by. Its almost the 1st year mark of me joining a new company. Here I am sitting in the same hotel that I do every month for the 8th time already as i'm officially an employee of this new company for 8 months. Somehow, it feels longer. But then the job that I'm doing seems endless and never ending.

The husband is out drinking and entertaining which pisses me off. Somehow, whenever I'm not around, entertainment is just necessary. Or ineviteble. Irritates the hell out of me.

I should be feeling better that I can rant, but somehow, it doesnt change much....

How can anyone resist that face...??

And now .. getting old grown up .. *sniff*

Its suppose to be the beginning of a new year. This is suppose to be the embarkment of a new journey. A journey which one always supposes starts with much laughter and happiness. But here I am. Spending my first new year as a newly wedded person, sitting on the bed, laptop in front of me, eyes drenched in tears and typing to vent it all out. What the hell is this suppose to mean????

Newlyweds I thought were suppose that we are still encosed happily and engrossed with each other. This is not the case for me. I have a husband whom today of all days has made something significantly clear to me, He Has His OWN life and I have my OWN life. We do not comprise or help each other out. When one enlists help, be reminded that the other party doesnt have to fulfill it because the other party wasn't the one who offered anyway. Asking for help doensn't signify that the other party is obligated or would be happy to help out. Asking for help means that you're only putting pressure and giving the other party grief. So, this is what marriage is suppose to be?!?!? A marriage more of just convenience. If you're down and need help that's your problem dude. If you need help, sure ask, but that doensn't mean I need to do it because I never offered in the first place. So I can opt to just take lightly what you've asked.

This is what I'm suppose to put and bear with... So tell me, why shouldn't I be hurt beyound words @ such callousness. You tell me how those words sound to you.